Monday, August 14, 2017

Do it all for the Glory of God


This past week we have had the opportunity to look at six different houses. They have been quite the range in styles and prices. The highest was Q8,000 ($1,100) a month, which was trying to get us to bite as gringos (white people) to see if we would pay that. The prices dropped all the way down to Q1000/month (around $135). The styles ranged from a place with one large finished room and bathroom, along with two extra rooms under construction, to a house with lots of plants, flowers, and a large area of grass. We are trusting God that He will lead us to the place that He wants us to be in. We ask that you continue be praying for our decision process.


We are now spending twice a week with our neighbor kids, Monday and Thursday afternoons. They come at 2:00 and usually spend 2 ½ -3 hours with us. We are looking forward to being able to grow this into a thriving after-school program. As we have been looking at houses we have been envisioning what an after-school program will look like in those places. With that in mind we know that the price we pay for rent will be a combination of living space and ministry space.  We also know that as the program grows we will need to increase our school supplies, games, materials, sports equipment, shelving, and storage. This is the reason we need people to partner with us. We are currently only 58% funded of our $3,200/month goal. If we were fully funded, we would be able to purchase those supplies, not be as limited on our rent budget, and could have more freedom to make certain expenditures. If you are interested in donating some games, supplies, or sports equipment that would be amazing. Christopher, (in the picture) one of our neighbor kids, loves building and creating things. We were drawing mazes the other day, and he was using dominoes to build towers. He asked if we had any puzzles or Legos and we had to say no. If you are interested in donating some of those types of games or activities they would be put to great use! Right now, we have been playing Dutch Blitz, Trouble, Go Fish, Jenga, Junk Art, and Dominoes to name a few.

However, we also need ongoing monthly gifts. We have been trying to decide if we should include a lunch or only a snack for the after-school program. It would be so amazing if one or two people decided to give to provide lunch for the kids once or twice a week. (A quick estimate of cost for 15 kids for two days a week would be $85/month) Then the decision would be made for us and God would be using your funds to allow us to more time to build relationships with these kids. Monthly gifts would also cover the constant expense of replacing sports equipment. Soccer balls get destroyed, t-shirts for the kids to differentiate teams get ruined, basketballs, cones, all different types of plastic and softer balls, rope, and anything else you can imagine. God has sent us to Guatemala with a passion and vision to spread His love to kids and their families through the gifts and abilities He has blessed us with. During this season of beginning our after-school program we will be spending time in prayer specifically asking that God will provide the funds we need to complete our budget. If you want your gift to go toward something specifically, be sure to designate your gift so we can be sure to use it in the way you wish.

Will you be a part of God’s work in Guatemala by joining with us in prayer and supporting us financially over this time of transition and beginnings? God has some amazing things in store in the next few months as we move into a new house and as we see Him work. Let’s go! We are so excited just thinking about all the possibilities. 1 Corinthians 10:31 says, “Whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God.” Our hope is that our actions and relationships with these kids and their families will bring glory to God. We trust God that He will use as his priests to bring others to His throne so that they can find Him. All the glory to God!

We also wanted to say we are so thankful for those who pray for us and give financially. You are a blessing to us and we wouldn’t be here without you.

If there are specific ways we can be covering you or your family in prayer we would love to be talking to God about you as well. Send us an e-mail (abrubaker@pushtherock.org or krishauna@hopeforhome.org) or Facebook message and we will be in contact.
                                                     Andi and Krishauna



Tuesday, August 8, 2017

I carry you in my heart

It has been a while since I've written. I haven't forgotten. I'm not too busy. I just couldn't write. I couldn't find the words and I didn't really want to try. But here it is…

I have been struggling.

The last few months have been hard. On February 22nd, we got great news that I was pregnant. We went into our 8-week appointment on March 18th to find out I had what is called a molar pregnancy. Having only half of the chromosomes meant that the baby couldn't form correctly, but instead, a clump of cells was growing at an accelerated rate. So, after some blood tests, a D&C was scheduled for three days later on March 21st. The operation went smoothly and the doctor was very optimistic that everything was removed, but it took a couple months and multiple blood tests every few weeks to verify that no further action would be required. Physically, I am doing great and my levels are back to normal. Praise God!

Emotionally, it has been difficult. We have lost a child and that isn't an easy thing to deal with. I have been a mess (Ask Andi… he was right by me through it all).

Now, before anyone tries to tell me that it wasn't a child, just stop. I don't need to hear that. It isn't helpful (I have multiple reasons for why I believe it was a child and I would love to share those with anyone who would like to hear them, but I won't go into that now). No matter what you believe about when a life begins and what happens in a molar pregnancy, we still lost the future of having this child in our family and it hurts.

My necklace reminder of our baby
I am slowly healing from this. God has sent many people into my life who have been such an encouragement to me. There are people who have just sat and listened to me, some have shared their experiences with me, and others have given pieces of advice and encouragement. It still hurts and I won't ever fully get over the hurt of losing this child, but God is working in me and that feels good.

I could still use prayer. Some days, the emotions hit harder and I feel depressed and angry that we are having to go through this. Other
days, I am able to give it all to God 
and trust Him and His timing for 
our lives.

Thank you for all those who have been praying for us and encouraging us through this time!

Krishauna (and Andi)